“When Satan reminds you of your past, remind him of his future.”
He read the marquee out loud as we drove past.
I could see him pondering it in the rearview mirror, and wondered apprehensively what might come next.
“Mommy, someone once told me that the more you say his name, the more powerful he gets.”
“Yes. Is that true?”
I suppressed a smile.
“No, honey, that’s not true. We shouldn’t be afraid of Satan, because our God is more powerful than he. When we feel afraid, we should talk to God about it.”
“Are you sure?”
I reassured my son that saying the devil’s name gives him no power, but later…I began to wonder.
Saturday night at SheSpeaks, Renee Swope spoke about doubt. She related how she has always struggled with insecurity. It was a powerful talk. Renee spoke of her childhood, the brokenness of coming from a place of divorce, poverty, and dysfunction.
Don’t I know all too well the kind of adult such a childhood makes?
As she spoke, Renee did something that still looms in my mind.
She spoke of preparing for a particular speaking engagement. As she put on her makeup, Renee was consumed with self-loathing and doubt. In a moment of anguish, she turned away from the mirror and was struck by the hugeness of her shadow. On stage that night, Renee turned her back to us, the lights were lowered, and her shadow rose high above her. It was so large it seemed it would envelope her. With her back to us, she described how, in that moment, a realization came over her. She understood that the only reason she could see her shadow was because she had turned away from the light. Then, she realized, that she was in the way of the light.
Dear Ones, saying Satan’s name will not make him stronger. But when we repeat the lies he tells us over and over in our heads, we give him power. Don’t turn away from the Light.
This is the third year I have attended SheSpeaks. I understand the crazy kaleidoscope of emotions that follow such a mountaintop experience. Don’t let Satan cast his shadow over you during this time of watering the seeds that were planted.
Draw close to the Light. Here is where you can truly see. You have purpose. It may seem unclear right now just what that purpose is. Do not despair. Hold on to the promises God made you in this crazy journey.
Here is a picture of the prayer room the ladies at SheSpeaks prepared for us. Let it serve as a reminder that we can create a sanctuary like this in our own homes.
Meet with Him.
He loves you.
He wants you to use the gifts He has bestowed upon you.
He just needs to prepare you first.
Shalom, Dear Ones.