It has been a busy, yet sweet week, my friends. God has been speaking, in the quiet and mysterious ways that He does.
And His constant reassurance has nudged me a bit.
I have been practicing confidence.
Not in myself, but in Him.
For I have discovered this about myself: My prayers are whiny.
They often dwell on my dissatisfaction. They frequently consist of laying out my fears and insecurities. Pleading for release.
I was very embarrassed when I realized how selfish my prayers sounded.
Now, I believe that God loves to hear from His children, no matter.
I believe he takes these adolescent rantings in stride.
But I want my prayers to be more than just a one-sided dumping out of grief.
So…I have been practicing confidence.
Whenever a worry or a doubt or a…whine (?) crosses my mind, I give it to Him.
I simply say, “You will handle this, Lord.” And it is done.
When these things are handed to Him as they arise…my prayer time is freed to adore Him. To praise. To savor and enjoy.
It is a beautiful thing.
And I think He likes it too.
“For you have been my hope, O Sovereign Lord, my confidence since my youth. From birth I have relied on you; you brought me forth from my mother’s womb. I will ever praise you. I have become like a portent to many but you are my strong refuge. My mouth is filled with your praise, declaring your splendor all day long.” (Psalm 71:5-8)
“Have no fear of sudden disaster or the ruin that overtakes the wicked, for the Lord will be your confidence and will keep your foot from being snared.” (Prov. 3:25-26)
“But blessed is the man who trusts in the lord, whose confidence is in him.”(Jer. 17:7)
“Let us approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.”(Heb. 4:16)
“Therefore, brothers, since we have confidence to enter the Most Holy Place by the blood of Jesus, by a new and living way opened for us through the curtain, that is , his body, and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water.” (Heb. 10:19-22)