The disappointment falls over me. I feel its oppressiveness.
I sit, motionless. Willing it to move.
The thing that I want is behind that dark cloud. Light and beauty. Illumination. Joy.
Tempted to give up.
I go in, get more coffee.
Hug the cup in my two hands.
I watch in disbelief as the cloud rapidly moves south, blown by invisible breath.
Behind the darkness: weightless, white, fluff. Around the edges…light begins to spill.
Out the door.
Down the stairs.
To the sand.
I stand before the light.
I walk and pray, letting the light illumanate.
The sound of the ocean reassures me: Light is never far.
This is my life.
He chases darkness away. He fills my life with light.
Precious God, I have known darkness. You wipe it all away. Let me never forget what you have cleansed me of, Lord. Let me never forget what you have done in my life. I want to shout it from the mountain tops, Love. But today, today…I will throw it out to the ocean. Your beauty astounds me, God of all creation. I love you.