I arrive home from a crushing caseload at work and hubs’ first words to me are to inform me of a schedule conflict.
Not just any conflict, but one involving my son. One I can’t get out of. One that will involve missing the sharing of something pretty special with my boy.
I can feel the tears pulling at my eyes, so I sit down and place hands over face.
Trying to hide this weakness.
It will be okay, honestly.
But I am tired.
All it takes is Jeff’s hand on my leg. His gentle, “What’s the matter?” His reassuring words.
And I am all ablubber.
“I’m just tired. I can’t keep up with anything anymore. I’m missing things with the boys. My patients aren’t getting my best. I can’t keep up with laundry. This house is a wreck. I feel like I’m not doing anything well right now.”
The tears are leaking out from behind my fingers, hastening down cheeks and misting my eyes.
Jeff is my hero. He speaks gently and lovingly. But best of all, he takes the boys to their music lessons and gives me a couple hours of quiet.
“Just relax,” he says, as he ushers guitar and drum stix out the door.
So, after eating a decadently delicious blonde brownie (I earned it today, sisters!), I pick up my Self Talk, Soul Talk book to get started on my online Bible study post (another thing I’m behind on) and what do you think the title of this week’s chapter is?
Chill Out: Be At Rest, O My Soul.
I would have laughed out loud…if I wasn’t still crying.
God’s timing is perfect.
In this chapter Jennifer discusses how our souls need rest—not just our bodies.
Jennifer reminds me that the only place I can get this kind of soul rest is in the One who created my soul. The only One who knows the deepest places inside.
Only God can speak this kind of rest over me.
Jennifer tells me that this kind of rest is not only a decision; it is a discipline.
Saying yes to God, means saying no to other things. It requires putting Him first and regularly spending time with Him.
I’d love to write more on this very timely topic, but I need to get me some Soul Rest. Drum stix and guitar will be clanging through the door very shortly, and I need to renew myself.
Let Him give you rest, Dear Ones. Go to Him.