Wrestling Fear


There have been seasons of my life where fear was the garment that covered me.

Struggling out of this wrap has often turned into a wrestling match for this lady.

That’s one reason why I have looked forward to reading Micca Campbell’s book, An Untroubled Heart…Finding Faith That Is Stronger Than All My Fears.

Another reason? I’ve heard Micca speak a few times at SheSpeaks…and she rocks! This lady can take me from an ugly cry to a full belly laugh in a matter of minutes. She is an amazing storyteller and really knows how to get to the heart. As I read these first chapters of her book, I could hear her sweet southern drawl as plain as if she was speaking the words to me.

I missed our first post on this Yes to God study, but I’m playing catch up this week with chapter two: The Fear Factor.

In this chapter, Micca shows us that fear is a problem with faith.

She reminds us that “we are not created to live in fear…” citing 2 Timothy 1:7—“For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.”

Once we fully understand that it is only through the grace of God that we can accomplish anything, fearless living is the natural outcome.

One thing that really spoke to me in this chapter was Micca’s discussion on the introduction of fear. She describes Adam disobedience in the Garden thus: “…Adam was persuaded that he could be his own god, self-sufficient in every way.”

Micca goes on to say, “The same is true for you and me. Most of the time, you and I live independent of God’s presence. We act as if everything depends on us…But god never meant for you and me to be strong in and of ourselves. We were meant to show His strength in our weakness as He provides for our needs…”

A-hem.

Convicted.

How many times have I tried to wrestle a circumstance into coming out the way I wanted it to? Regardless of what I hear the Father telling me?

I never realized what a serious god-complex I can have at times.

But the truth is…

I like things to go my way.

I mean, who doesn’t?
I’ve just always known that if I want something done right, I have to do it myself (smile)—am I sounding a bit—er—controlling?

Micca says, “One of the hardest things to do is to give up control and trust someone other than ourselves.”

And how.

So how do I surrender? How do I let go of these things in clutching fist?

Micca says, “For you and me to live as carefree children in the car of God, we must return to living daily in His presence.”

I have to say, this works well for me. When I am in close intimacy with my Lord, trust flows freely. One exercise that helps me is to envision myself kneeling before His throne and actually laying down my crowns…giving Him my all—all my burdens and all my best.

I’m looking forward to traveling through this book with you all. If you want to read some more thoughts on this chapter, visit Lelia and Mr. Linky.

Join us on this journey to an untroubled heart.

Comments

  1. says

    That first sentence is statement so many can confess. You always always leave me thinking Laura. Love that.
    And you my friend.

    sooooo glad you are in this study. I was a bit worried Prince Charming had whisked you out of blog land! 🙂
    love,
    Lelia

  2. says

    Laura,

    Although I am not participating in this study (time restraints), I am thoroughly enjoying the insight along with you all. Yes, it is quite difficult to surrender, isn’t it? I have found that when I hang on too tightly to certain things, the pain of letting go is so much worse. It is so much easier to just trust Him from the start. Easier said than done, my friend…yes, but so worth it when we have just the tiniest bit of success. Love your insight, as always…and love you too!

  3. says

    Oh that surrendering control.

    I am trying to surrender control now, but with this past week, and some of the things going on, it is really, really hard!

    This chapter was yet again convicting, and a hard one for me to find the words to write… unfortunately once I started writing, I couldn’t stop! 🙂

    Love your insights! I love coming and reading what you have to say!
    As always,
    Love and God bless,
    Heather

  4. says

    Laura, welcome back. I missed you here in blog land.

    Well yes this is a conviciting chapter, and I haven’t posted yet, but will catch up soon.

    Uhm! you so spoke to my heart and my controlling nature. I too like things my way. Oh so much to learn.

    Love,
    Carol

  5. says

    I must confess,I like things my way,too. Love your thoughts.

    Looking forward as we going through yet another journey with Christ,together.

    love and hugs~Tammy

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