There have been too many rushed days, too many jam-packed weekends and crowded moments. And when it happens this way—when the days stack endlessly up against each other—it only takes one tiny push for them to tip over, fall flat against each other and spill messy everywhere.
We’ve had nineteen years together—some better than others—but after all that time that invisible string that ties my heart to his always seems to tug both ways when the domino days start to teeter.
So we go to a place where no one knows our face—duck in and out of crowds holding hands like young lovers and it feels this way…new. And once, in the din of the dinner crowd, to the background music of other people meeting and joining their lives together—once, I look at his face and I see God in him.
Because, aren’t we all His image-bearers?
I have to take a second look; I have to touch this face that I know as well as my own—each evolving crease and the turn of the mouth. In the midst of all that noise I am slowed to see how this man that I have made life with for nineteen years—made a nest with and made love and messes and babies—I am slowed to see how he carries God in his smile.
And the question falls out of nowhere—like a domino that’s been set too close.
Can I see loving my husband as a way of loving Jesus?
For just one moment I am touching Jesus when I touch his face and it takes my breath away and I am not sure how to hold on to this. If I could fill life with domino moments like these—wouldn’t love fall? Wouldn’t it spill a horizontal path out over everything around, weaving and twisting and turning until all the terrain of life is covered?
I touch his face and he looks into me. He feels it too. One touch. One tiny moment spills into another.
A domino cascade of holy moments.
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