I’m reviewing an interesting book over at The High Calling today. Won’t you join me?
It feels like I’m falling in love, this feeling. There is the roller-coaster ride of the light rise always followed by this steep drop in my stomach that makes me turn away from the material and pine for the giddy again.
But I am Juliet and all the world conspires to keep me from my Beloved.
We are in Centering Prayer when the storm hits. Tucked in the chapel we hear the trees brush the rooftop…feel the pounding of the wind. And when the rain stick signals the end of our contemplation and we sing the final love song, we leave that safe womb one-by-one and stand in front of the courtyard windows—watch the rain dance horizontal across the patio.
And then the lights go out. My silent retreat ends in the dark.
We finish out the night by candlelight and the sun brings with it fallen trees and silence. No electricity. The city is quiet, joining in our silence in sympathy.
I wonder what God is up to? My Spiritual Director chuckles, but I have to get home and help my husband unload the freezer…salvage what we can. And we’re on day four with no electricity and we’ve all but moved in with my in-laws.
Thanks be to God for family in times like these—for the giving up of a bed and warm showers and hot food on the table. But I feel like I’m on pause, and I’m standing on this balcony asking.
Is there a way that love can breathe deep in the middle of the vast interruptions of life? Is there a way to hear the gentle words that woo me into ecstasy amidst the din of daily hassles?
If He was flesh, I would touch the softness of His cheek as I hurry by to catch life by the nose. If He could be held I would pull Him to me. It’s that ache for the physical—the walk in the cool of the garden—that I feel tonight as I settle into a bed that is not my own.
It’s the ache for home.
So I pull in as close as I can, cling tight to a Word for the journey.
…earnestly I seek you;
I thirst for you,
my whole being longs for you,
in a dry and parched land
where there is no water…
Because your love is better
my lips will glorify you. (Psalm 63:1,3)
How do you embrace the God-joy? Every Monday I’ll be sharing one of my Playdates with God. I would love to hear about yours. It can be anything: outside, quiet time. Maybe it’s solitary. Maybe it’s loud and crowded. Just find Him. Be with Him. Grab my button at the bottom of the page and join us:
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Sharing with L.L. Barkat today also: