The twins come to the meadow this morning and I slip out in bare feet—tiptoe through the dew to join them for breakfast. Their mother used to come with them, but she is…gone, it seems. I forget my worry and the bone-tired heavy as I watch white tails flick and try to count their spots. When they look up at me with twitching ears their eyes are dark pools and I think how God is touching me with those eyes—loving me right here.
They say that every cloud has a silver lining and we are still in that place where just being together feels like cause for celebration. We go to the wound center every day to have Teddy’s wound tended and he gets better with each visit and life can almost be normal.
Influence is a spiritual matter, he says. That word, it comes from the Latin infuentia—meaning something that flows in and causes changes, usually a force that is imperceptible or hidden.
God is the ultimate influencer, he goes on to say. The job of a spiritual leader is to guide people to the place where God does his transforming work.
I’ve never thought of myself as a leader but I can be a pretty good guide. I can stand on the corner of my life and point to Him, describing story after story and great points of interest all the while.
I cannot forget how close He came to me when I was in need and I feel His inflow carrying me in its current—changing my direction…shifting me about. And it feels okay not to have all the answers—to trust in this soft pulling and surrender.
Thank you for all the prayers, dear friends. I haven’t given up on visiting all of you–missing your words. Soon, I hope to get back to the normal. Love to you.
How do you embrace the God-joy? Every Monday I’ll be sharing one of my Playdates with God. I would love to hear about yours. It can be anything: outside, quiet time. Maybe it’s solitary. Maybe it’s loud and crowded. Just find Him. Be with Him. Grab my button at the bottom of the page and join us:
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