Rumors of things Unseen

This morning, the sky is white and there is talk of more snow and I put a little trickle of honey in my oatmeal as I get ready for the day. Because sometimes you need life to be just a little sweeter.
It’s been a long week and I’ve had trouble finding words—I’m another year older but each day finds me feeling more and more like a little girl. The rabbis say it is a sign of wisdom when one feels the older she gets the less she knows but all these storms raging inside of me only leave me trembling with inadequacy.
This morning I finished reading Mark Buchanan’s book on Sabbath, The Rest of God. As is my custom, when I turned the last page, I leafed back through to remember which words whispered most to my heart. I always read with pen in hand, underlining and scribbling in the margins whatever springs to life in the shadow of the print. I left a lot of markings in the margins of this book.
Buchanan says that there are two golden rules of Sabbath: Cease from what is necessary and Embrace that which gives life. As I re-read that second rule marked with black ink, I felt it press in upon me and echo in my spirit.
Embrace that which gives life.
Shouldn’t I do this every day?
In Deuteronomy, the Lord tells his people, “...I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life…that you may love the LORD your God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him…” (30:19, emphasis mine).
Choose life. How often do I choose poorly? How often do I wrap my fingers around all that will wither and pass away? This restlessness inside of me often leads me to the places that quench my spirit—a temporary filling that leaves me emptier than ever in the long run.

Sabbath is for rest. But it is also a good opportunity to point our restlessness heavenward. Like a wisteria plant, our restlessness needs to be trained to go in a certain direction, or else it follows a path of least resistance. When we recognize that our loneliness, our hunger, our weariness, our disappointment—that these are not final verdicts but only rumors of things unseen, it changes their meaning. It empties them of their power to defeat us. It fills them with an energy to spur us toward deeper hope. —Mark Buchanan, The Rest of God (emphasis mine).

I have been weary and disappointed. I have been hungry for deeper hope. I have been choosing the wrong things. Today, in this moment, I will choose life. It will mean listening closer—with the ears of my heart.

Already I feel the beauty stirring inside of me.  

Comments

  1. Katie Andraski says

    Thank you for sharing this. There’s a lot to think on here and might well get this book to read. Rest has been something the Lord has been trying to teach me since I was a young woman. Often when I’m restless and overwhelmed I just open Facebook. Ugh. I like what this says about embracing what gives life. Thank you for your honesty and good writing.

    Sincerely, Katie Andraski
    http://www.katieandraski.com

  2. says

    Yes, it’s been on my “to-read” list for quite some time, Elaine, but you know how big those stacks get :). I’m still soaking it in. Buchanan is one of my favorite contemporary writers. He has a way of creating beauty that has weight with his words. They don’t float away, if you know what I mean 🙂

  3. says

    I am not very good at practicing Sabbath either, Katie. I talk a little about that in my book coming out in Sept. I’m more apt to grab a “Sabbath moment” than set aside an entire day. But this book is calling me deeper. Because Jesus always does. If you end up reading it, let me know what you think!

  4. MsLorretty says

    Oh. It sounds like I need to get that book. Melancholy. That’s what I feel more and more. I have to keep reminding myself that there’s so much more to embrace. I’m chasing too..I have a hunger for the REAL…and to surround myself with those who do too. Not sure this is all that bad. Bless you friend, I really do get this place.

  5. Elizabeth Stewart says

    Laura, we must be experiencing the same “doldrums” as I so related to much of what you said. I, too, choose life!

  6. Sue Awes says

    Laura – many of us do not often comment – but that does not mean that we are not deeply stirred by what you write – I loved this –

  7. soulstops says

    Laura,
    Oh…this has been a week of choosing again and again and again life and focus on Him and I have also felt weary…praying God restores us both..((hugs))

  8. Monica Sharman says

    “Today, in this moment.” Yeah, let’s do that.

    Thanks for sharing—from this book, and from you.

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