Yes to God Bible Study: An Untroubled Heart by Micca Campbell
Chapter Five: Family Matters
This week’s reading went down like a mug of hot chocolate on a cold wintry day.
I don’t know what it is about being a mother that fills me with fear and insecurities. Sometimes I love these two little people that came from my body so much that it fills me with panic.
What if I do this all wrong?
Micca asks us at the end of this chapter, “Would you describe yourself as a faith-driven parent or a fear-driven parent?”
It was difficult for me to look inside and honestly answer this question.
The truth is, the older my boys get–the more I seem to be filled with fears about their future.
They were so easy when they were soft and round and pink. I look back on those days of the scent of Johnson’s Baby Shampoo with longing now. They were so…
Now, they seem to have this thing called an opinion about everything. They have desires and interests. They have grown into their own little personalities.
For the most part, these developments fill me with joy and anticipation.
I like the people my little guys are becoming. It has been a wonderful gift from God to watch them grow and see them experience life.
But too many times I have let my expectations interfere with their healthy development. I could really relate to Micca’s statement about her son, Mitch, after he got a tattoo.
“My son, who I thought was made in my image, actually had dreams and a God-given purpose of his own. I had to let go of my own dreams, expectations, and fears and accept him as he was, tattoo and all.”
Micca reminded me throughout this chapter (and this is the sweetness of the hot chocolate going down) of God’s promises to me.
Choosing to trust in Him rather than give in to fear is a gift that I can give my children.
As long as they always do what I want them to do.
They were His first.
I’m trying to trust Him with them. Even when I don’t understand the path He chooses for them.