We are driving home from a graduation party for my niece. I look out the window into the blur of passing cars and I see her reflection there: a chubby-legged three year old as flower girl on my wedding day.
And I am astonished.
Once again I am astonished at this thing that turns babies into young women.
To me, time is a one-way train. I cannot go back on this ticket.
But my niece stands on the threshold of the future. She’s hopped aboard without even looking back.
But it takes my breath away.
The eagerness in her eyes.
No glance over the shoulder.
And I ask myself, was I once like that?
And if so, why did I stop?
Why did the beauty there is in hope stop touching me?
Don’t get me wrong.
I’m not one of these women who spend her days longing for the youth of yesteryear.
My life is beautiful. There is not one thing I would change about it.
Aw, but there is one thing I would change about me.
I would make them more eager.
I will fill them with hope.
I would open them to the beauty of each passing moment.
Why is this so hard when we wear the weight of a few extra years?
But it is.
Life presses in.
And we lose sight of where True Beauty comes from.
We move our eyes away.
I move my eyes away.
And so He puts things in my life to remind me. He gently reminds me to fix my gaze. He uses music, or stories, or art.
But lately, it’s been poetry.
What has He placed in your life lately to refocus your gaze? What beauty have you seen?
Is it the young, eager eyes of a high school graduate?
The smell of a freshly baked loaf of bread?
The feel of your infant’s skin rubbing against your cheek?
Oh, dear ones, He sends it all.
Thank Him today. And fix your gaze.
(When my boys graduate I am going to need a Xanax, or something. Will you all be here for me in a few years?)
“Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down form the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.” (James 1:17)
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